From a song

Lets go again

Quote from 'The City is at War'

"Ignore me"

"If You See me"

"Cause I Just Dont Give a SHIT"

To some people out there or whoever,

You wana critize me, make fun of me, ignore me or whatever, please do so. Because whatever you do, it does not effect me, your existance means nothing to me, and yes, I dont give a SHIT.

Tq =)

Oh SPM~

After awhile, Ill go again

SIJIL PELAJARAN MALAYSIAN (SPM)

Oh~ I so dont want to face it...
But its in a few months time (NO!!!)
Whatever it is, Ill do my best (pray for me!!)
9A1! amin~

and, good luck for others who's taking it too =D

Sayonara~

Ill go again one more time...

Going back to school!!

This holiday is a challenging one.

Lots of craps thrown at me

But wat the hell...

Life goes on

Blogging is on hold for awhile

Sayonara!!!

A nice phone call

So, Im gonna go again..

Now is 2.36 am.

The day Im gonna go back to school

Anyways, I just finish a phone conversation with two people! Well, two people talk over the same phone. hahaha. It was DAMN fun. Both were crazy. Both were fun. Both were funny. Both make me laugh like hell. Its been a while since I 'bergayut' on the phone. And Im glad I did once more before I go back to school. It was fun. To talk to your two good friends. And I was their 1st choice to call when they were bored. WAAAA... Was happy to hear that. HAHAHA.

Anyways, these two people is very close to me, my birthday mate and my twin petsis. haha They're fun! and I love both of them so Damn Much! Tx Bey and Nara! Here they are!

(Bey and Nara)

That message...

Lets go again..

That sms...

'u noe. Im trying my very best to nt thnk bout us. So many thngs hppnd. I just mls nk fk dh bcos it wont get anywhere. Mcm tu jgk. So im better off on my own'

So, there it is. I was looking forward for a respond... But thats not excatly what I was looking foward for... But its a respond at least.. That sms marks the total end of everything i guess. =(

To A,

Im sorry for always bothering you. It seems you've been trying so hard to forget it all, but I keep bringing it up. Thats so stupid of me. Im sorry. I do not blame you for acting like how you are now. I am a jerk and Ive screw up alot. I will not bother you anymore. I will make existance not noted to you. For your sake, Ill totally back off. I now know that We can never be together ever again, so Ill just dream of you. Ill always be a dreamer. Hope everything goes good for you. Ill be praying always. I will there for you if you need. Im here, ill always be here. Take Care A. 143

Good Bye

(No More)

Never Back Down

Here goes another one....

Life SUCKS

Debate is hard

Academic is falling

Love doesnt exist

Friendships are shaking

Loneliness arise

The dark side of me is showing

But

I wont stop there

Ill fix it all

'Never Back Down'

'Fight Till The End'

Will follow those words =)

(The shirt says 'Fight Till The End')

A night

Something happened tonight...

My house power supply went out! well... not just mine. the whole damn neighbourhood. hahaha. spent 2 hours in the dark! but it was interesting. the sky was beautiful. i was staring at it all the way. so, blackouts have its negative and postive. agree?? =)

(In the garden during blackout)

Everyone is Different

Here goes....

People always say:

'All Boys Are The Same'

and

'Perempuan Semua Sama Je'

Let me make it straight... Nobody is the same in this world. Our looks are different. Our emotions are different. Our feelings are different. Our behaviour are different. We are NEVER the same. But at times, i which same people are the same. Well... at least have something in common. What i meant is about how people evaluate things. How people come to a conclusion. How people would think before making a decision. How people would judge both side of the story. Basically I can say, Im everything what i just say. But, my life is terrible now, because people like to come to the conclusion just like that. They don't listen to my side. I never said im inocent. But i have my reasons on things. Because of this, many people have ditch me. Leaving me just like that, clueless. I dont like it. Though Im getting use to it. For me, even if my closest friends tells me something bad about this person, I would like to know their half before I conclude things. I dont want to feel wrong things towards people. At times, I want people to be like that. Be the same in that way. But what can I do?? I have to face the fact.....

Everyone is Different

1,2,3,4

Give me more lovin' than I've ever had

Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad

Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad

Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you

I love bein' around you

You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

Give me more lovin' from the very start

Piece me back together when I fall apart

Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad

Best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you

I love bein' around you

You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do

Three words for you I love you

There's only one way to say

Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

I love you

I wish to dedicate this to someone

and

I hope someone would dedicate it to me

=)

Birthday Girl

Azalia Zaharuddin =)

She's my one and only bestfriend a.k.a my bestie. Met Her when I was in Form 2 (2006). We got along pretty well and have been bestfriends ever since. She has been there for me all this while and i hope Im the same for her. A person I would go to for any reason. Been through sad times, happy times, and challenging times together. Hope it stays that way =).

Happy Birthday Dear Bestie =]

Sweet 17

(18.03.1992)

Im there for you always

Dead Memories

Sitting in the dark, I can't forget

Even now, I realize the time I'll never get

Another story of the bitter pills of fate

I can't go back again, I can't go back again

But you asked me to love you and I did

Traded my emotions for a contract to commit

And when I got away I only got so far

The other me is dead, I hear his voice inside my head

You told me to love you and I did

Tied my soul into a knot and got me to submit

So when I got away I only kept my scars

The other me is gone now I don't know where I belong

And we were never alive and we won't be born again

But I'll never survive with dead memories in my heart

Dead memories in my heart

A Sleeping Tool

Well, usually people would comment things bout us. They would say, ure a friend that makes me happy, ure a friend that makes people laugh, ure the friend people can cry on and so on.

BUT

My birthdaymate, which is Nara said i have a different function towards her. Im a friend she'll go to if she wants to SLEEP. Aha... Sleep. Weird eh?? Well, last nite around 3.00 a.m. she called me. Saying she apply for Hotlink Super Savers but suddenly all her friends she wanted to call was asleep. So she called me. (Consider that im a last option to call la...) So we talk and talk. Mainly no proper topic. But the She mention that she likes talking to me because that will make her sleepy

I was like 'What? Sleepy? How come?'. Well based on wat my other friends said, My voice if i talk through to the phone is very slow and lembik. So, Nara said, my voice sedap that it makes her sleepy and she likes it because she's a person that rarely gets sleepy. Hahahha. But she said its not that Im boring la. LOL.

So, it seems Im useful la in a way. To make people sleepy. Or maybe to make only Nara sleepy. hahaha. Kinda Cool But Weird.

So Nara

If You need to sleep

Ring me up

But dont disturb me sleep!!

=)

PS: To those who wants to try to get sleep too, try la call me. hahaha

Currently feeling....

All of a sudden

Being very jobless now. I wanted to update my blog. Was figuring out what to write. Suddenly, what im currently feeling right now gave me inspiration on what to write. Currently, i am...

BORING

JOBLESS

LONELY

Heh... Kinda typical right?? All those feelings are very normal to me. But right now, its more than usual. Because Im at home, Im able to contact my 'friends'. But still, Im lonely and jobless.

Why Eh??

Maybe because, everyone is busy. Nobody would bother bout me. Nobody would care bout me. Well, thats life. Alone most of the time. Heh... Thinking bout dis leads me to jelousy. Well, i see alot of people with their BFF/BF/GF, they're so happy! Well. im not one of them. I dont have that special someone. Even if i think i do, that person would not feel the same. So i dont wana 'perasan'.

I dont have someone to share things with or to have fun with. No wonder I feel alone.

Heh.. Someone said, being alone and single is nice and ok. WTH!? So not true.. I have all this negative thinking and feeling because of that la..

It Sucks!!...

...to be lonely. heh.. Right now i just pray that friends will come and cheer me up. I just want attention. Is that too much to ask? I just wana be happy with friends.. Better yet, someone special.. Please.. Anyone??

Tx 4 those who read dis and wants to comfort me =)

Note: This is what happens when someone is lonely,they crap about ;)

Best of me

It's so hard to say that I'm sorry I'll make everything alright
All these things that I've done now what have I become
And where'd I go wrong

I don't mean to hurt, just to put you first
I won't tell you lies (I'm sorry)
I will stand accused with my hand on my heart
I'm just trying to say

I'm sorry
It's all that I can say
You mean so much and I'd fix all that I've done
If I could start again
I'd throw it all away
To the shadows of regrets and you would
Have the best of me

I know that I can't take back all of the mistakes, but I will try
Although it's not easy, I know you believe me, 'cause I would not lie
Don't believe their lies, told through jealous eyes, they don't understand (I'm sorry)
I won't break your heart, I won't bring you down
But I will have to say

I'm sorry
It's all that I can say
You mean so much and I'd fix all that I've done
If I could start again
I'd throw it all away
To the shadows of regrets and you would
Have the best of me

I'm sorry
It's all that I can say
You mean so much and I'd fix all that I've done
If I could start again
I'd throw it all away
To the shadows of regrets and you would
Have the best of me

This goes out to..... everyone and specificly to a few ppl =)

Dreams

I have dis one fren. a girl. she said she dreamt about a guy. mcm a person she admire la. i told her, u have a boyfren n a guy bestfren, not enough ke?? she said, cant a girl DREAM.

With that... i wonder n i realised... Dream... Dreaming. hahaha kinda cool eh? so i thougt... all dis while.. i love 2 dream to. i love someone, but they say it wont happen n its not worth it. so i wonder, cant i dream?? i dream of straight a's, they say impossible. Cant i dream?? i said i wanted to win ppm and iium interschool, they say others will win. again cant i dream??

Dreams usually dont come true
but sometimes it does
with luck, determination, hardwork and its blessing
so, ill keep on dreaming
maybe 1 day, it will all come true
even if it does not...
i dont care
cuz dreaming of it is good enough...
So..

Ill keep on dreaming =)

Back home~

Finally!!

Im back home!

after weeks of endless activies

which was damn tiring

finally im gona have my rest

7 days of relaxation

but~

I still have 2 study

exam is around the corner!?

(scared)

hahahahah

wtv it is

HAPPY HOLS 4 ME and everyone!!!

wat i hope 4 dis hols is to....

• STUDY
• Celebrate ayzie's bday
• Relax
• Play basketball
• Meet some friends (maybe)
• Spend time with family
• eat and sleep

heeee~