The Five

This is about Friendship



There are five of us
We love each other (in a friendly way)
We're close to each other
We care about each other
Let's stay that way =)
Here are the five:

Mohd Irfan Said

Irfan

My batchmate at School

My debate Captain

He's cool

He's fun

He knows how to Smile

Currently having a problem with him

Hope it will be solve soon

Nurul Bainun Shafri

Bey

My 'twin' sister

Meet her during Form 2

Very Cautious about her appearance

She's hyper

She's funny

She's fun

Currently always talking crap with her

She's the best

Nadhirah Jamaluddin

Nara

My Birthdaymate

Meet her during form 3

She's like a malay poet

She gives alot of good advice

Insomia and lazy to eat

Currently calling her at night if Im bored

The best birthdaymate ever

Azalia Zaharuddin

Ayzie

My Bestie

My Hero

Meet her through friendster in form 2

She's the closes person to me

She knows me inside out

A person i've been through alot with

She's adorable

She's hyper active

She's poetic and creative

She loves to sing

Currently spending alot of time with her

I want it to stay that way

I love all of you

Thanks for every bits of memory

Stay us =)

New Hair

Its new~


I cut my hair.
Not all of it.
Just the side and back part
But the front is still long =D
I love it!
Feel free to comment

But dont comment too much =P

Facebook Applications

Im on facebook!!

Well, the short story is about the applications
Ayzie, Bey and Nara took the 'Who loves you' calculation thingy
and..... the result....

I was FIRST for all three of them
AHAHAHAHAHA
What does this mean??? xD











Anyone care to explain?

Current Conclusion

This is about personal love life


After awhile, right now I feel that..
I have no place in 'that' part of her heart
It will never happen
And I feel so stupid because I did pressure her a number of time
Without me knowing bout it

So.....
Right now, of cause I dont feel ok
But I got to face it
What should I do now?
Anyone...??







Love is real, its just hard to find

Music

Music and Songs

The Melody
The Tune
The Beat
The Rythm
The best thing an ear could hear

Every Music or Song are created properly
Each song has its own meaning
To deliver a message or to show something

Yes, for sure whenever I listen to a song, Ill dance to the groove
But Ill also hear the lyrics properly
Ill try to understand the meaning
And I realised that alot of songs can be associated with me
Let it be pop, rock, ballad, country or whatever genre of music
I can find my situation in the music
Thats why I love music alot

There's too many song that symbolized me
But here's one of it
A part of the lyrics that is

Akon

Be with you

.

And no one knows, why Im into you

Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes

And no one knows, the things we've been through

Can never measure up to half of what I put you through

Thats why we'll break through

.

You are everything in my life, see the joy you bring

And aint no one i compare you to

And I know that you will never walk away from me no matter what

And thats why i plan to do the same thing for you

And I want you to know

.

And I don care what they say, I gonna be with you

I wana be with you

for those who knows what i mean here, just shut up =D

Getting Back On Track

Helo there


Its been a long time since I post anything here
I guess Ill start back as of this moment
So, let start things off

The freaking SIJIL PELAJARAN MALAYSIA is over
That means.....
1) Im no longer a school student
2) Im free from Sungai Gadut
3) No more white and green
4) No more boys 24/7
5) I can enjoy life

But even so, i have to depart from my fellow Meranti 05'9
I love them alot and I will surely miss them
Do hope that our SPM result will be a great one

SPM ended just 17 days ago and yet, Ive been through many things
Learned alot bout the very nature of social life
Learned about friendship and relationship
And learned about the boringness of post SPM. haha

Been sitting at home all these time
Hung out with friends afew time
Already sign up for driving classes but it only gonna start on sunday

Oh, I live in putrajaya now
The place is peaceful but hot

Well, my new life has only begun
And Ill try to post about it on this blog
Will be updating it
So for now...
Sayonara











Life is wonderful :)

Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia

Starts 18th November 2009

Ends 8th December 2009

20 days of exam

Im gona have a blast

Yeah!

Fly High 05'9!!

This is it

This is it

20 more days

Its getting close

Lets get pumped up

SPM

Here I come!

ps:

A 6 pages fully written A4 papers can change your life =)

Thank You

And that was the day

I promised I would not sing of love

If it did not exist

But Darling

You are the only exception

You are the only exception

Thank you 50, for these sweet words

Crows

I can't contain this feeling

.

Swelling up inside me

.

You take on the world alone

.

But don't know where to stop

.

Where are you looking for,

Flying into the sky?

.

The Hero lives in you

.

That is your true destination

.

Taking flight into the future

.

You are the sunlight

.

The Hero lives in you

.

Somewhere in this town

.

You're running breathless again

.

Only to return with scars

.

But so few reasons. Why?

.

Maybe we'll find a place one day

.

To share a laugh or two

.

All you gotta do is believe

.

.

.

Fly High =)

Hopes and dreams

Hope is when u want something and has a high probability that it will happen

Dream is when u desire something which is barely achieveable

.

.

.

Hero

Is it a realistic hope?

Or a soon to be shattered dream?

I dont know... I cant tell

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

It seems as if it will be a dream. please no

For a Friend

Happy Birthday Dhabitah

May God Bless You Always

I Love....

I love addmaths

I love it more when I cant answer it

Hahahahahah

37 days to spm

ARGH!!!!

I love my hero too =)

Anugerah Kokurikulum 2009

Hari Anugerah Kokurikulum 2009

I received the Anugerah Sinar Persada

Got a certificate and a special Tie

Thanks to everyone who helped me achieve it =)

Currently =D

Currently Enjoying Life At School

The Last 2 Months Of It

Come SPM =)

123... =P

A glimpse

A glimpse of the new house

Presint 16, Putrajaya

Moving real soon

Aidilfitri

Raya Aidilfitri

The Time For Forgiveness

Deepest Apology to Everyone

May You Have A Great Aidilfitri

(^-^)

He says She says

conversation goes like this

He: Tommorow balik kampung awal, malas la

She: Study la dalam kereta

He: You nak I pening lagi ke?

She: Study je la. Ngade.

He: Tak nak la. Memeningkan la

She: Watever la. Semua tak mau. Mengade

He: Mane ade semua tak mau. I mau you. lols

She: OKAY. That sounded weird.

He: Haha. I noe. and funny too. Saje je =P

Hahaha. Salam Aidilfitri everyone =)

Like I Love You

Lets Go

People are so phony, nosy cause they're lonely

Arent you sick of the sick of the same thing

They say so and so was dating, love you or they're hating

When it doesnt matter anyway

Cause we're here tonight

Im Back Home =D

Bestie

Azalia Zaharuddin

Ayzie

My best friend
My Bestie

The One Who Keeps Me Alive

I Appreciate Our Friendship

Love Her To Bits

=)

Happiness

Look how big was my smile back then

hahahahaha

InsyaAllah

Ill be smiling like that again from now on

Fill life with Happiness and just Smile

Back

Im back home
But wont be going online much often
Studying for SPM
mmmmm....
Will meet back again after SPM!
later~

Trials

Go Go Exam!!

Trials starting on 5th august and ends around mid september

SBP and JPNS trial

WAAAAA!!

Not prepared

But will do my best

Everyone, sorry for all that ive done and pray for me

tx =)

Beautiful

Truly gone

In my shoes, just to see

What it's like, to be me

Ill be you, lets trade shoes

Just to see, what it'd be like to

Feel you pain, you feel mine

Go inside each others mind

Just to see what we find

Look at shit through each others eyes

But dont let em say you aint beautiful

They can all get fucked

Just stay true to you

Gone away

Off to school

wish me luck for trials and spm

Bye

Friends

Going soon

Friends

They

Come and go

Some are even

Dead and Gone

But

I still treasure them

I thank my friends for sticking by my side

I apologize for those who i hurt

I will always love you all

But

For those who thinks they are my friend

Not realizing that they're not

....................

Fuck them!!

Hey you

Gone away??

Hey you

How are you?

Hey you

How does it feel to be in the finals?

Hey you

How does it feel to be appreciated?

Hey you

How does it feel to be on stage?

Hey you

How does it feel to talk infront of a large crowd?

Hey you

How does it feel to win the finals?

Hey you

How does it feel to hold the trophy?

Hey you

How does it feel to be famous?

Hey you

How does it feel to be the best?

Hey you

Do you know how it feels like to be me?

Hey you

I miss you

Sori

Love

Gone

Sometimes love comes around

And it knocks you down

Just get back up

When it knocks you down

17

Gone from 16

Dearest Nur Ain Mohd Ali

Happy Birthday!!!

You are now 17 =)

Youre old la~

hahaha

Do stay as my annoyer

May God bless you always

Happy Birthday to Ameyl too

Gone from school

Back Home

but to study

phone call

Goes away...

so.. to tell u the truth

Ive been waiting for a phone call

from someone

But.. it never came

sad...

been waiting for it since the 2nd term of school started

till this very day

it never came.

Where are you??

I mean nothing to you is it??

I just wanted a call just to say hi and bye

nothing much

Maybe a call to ask me for a GOOD LUCK WISH for your finals

Maybe a call to say that uve won the finals

Maybe a call to ask if im ok from my fever or not

Maybe a call to just say anything

but it never came

Where are you??

Even my other friends called me.

Im glad that they did

But i was hoping for your call more

..................... did i do something wrong??

If i did, im damn sori

I just miss you...

My dear bestfrem

Currently at school

Going BUSY

Yup, going busy like hell

High Commitee For SDAR's Open Block

Lots of work to do

Need to study for upcoming SPM trials

But been missing class. haha

Praying for Ayzie's succes for PPM finals

Im broken hearted too. lols

Im the inspiring uninspired

Im done with L.O.V.E

SPM~ i hate you!

And im not chosen for PLKN hahaha

What I miss

I'll go

These are the words I feel now

They're all part of the list, things that I miss

Things like your funny little laugh

Or the way you smile, or the way we kiss

What I noticed is this

I come up with something new

Every single time that i sit and reminisce

And you live in my memories

Forever more I swear

That goes out to my bestie




I miss those days


and the kiss aint real

The SMS

I have to go~


Ok. I usually like people smsing me. but this msg is not really a msg i would like to receive.
Here Goes

'Hyep. Gul Lark 4 trial! 50 more days 2 go b4 SBP Trial! it's on 5/8/09 =)'

That was sent by a fren from sms dungun...

WTH!??? dont remind me bout trial!!!!!!! no!!!!

-_-'






I hate exams

The Script

Go~

Yes, its about love life again =)

A few nights ago, i chat with T.
T is a good friend of her.
I chat with T, get to know more about T and asked T about her

Well, here's an interesting part of our chat

T : So, Right now, u just have to wait for her
Me: Yeah, I would wait for her. Thats all I can do =)
T : But it hurts kan, if what you wait for does not work out?
Me: Well, maybe it will.. but I dont mind. Having this feeling is good enough
T : Ooh, Thats sweet =)
Me: Hahaha, naah. normal je la. I do like her. Ill wait and I dont mind

Conclusion
I like her and I know, despite dis feeling and waiting for her, might not bring any good. But its ok, i dont care, i dont mind. Have this feeling, is more than enough

Tx to her =D




Im the man who can't be moved

Always

Go and be Gone

Starts with a Smile =)
It moves on with a bigger Smile =D

She said

'Ris, be there for me k?'

I said

'I will always be there for you. I always am'

No matter what's the condition, How we are, or anything..
I will alway be there
I will always care

Blooming Heart

When The Wind Blows

Go and Blow

I've got to breathe
You can't take that from me
Cause it's all that you left that's mine
You had to leave
And that's all I can see
But you told me your love was blind

There are times
You're so impossible that I should sign a waiver
And you will find
Someone worth walking on when you ask me to go

There was a day
You threw our love away
Then you passed it to someone new
You wanna stayBut since you wanna play
We can finally say we're through

There are times you're so impossible and you ask me to go

You can scream there's just echoes
Pass outside of your window
You'll be sad that you let me go
I'll leave but just know

As I lay in solitude
Oh what's a boy supposed to do
I shake the very thought of you
Me together, I remember
Late nights when I stayed up late
All I do is wait and wait
Your never coming home to me
That's the hardest thing to see

I got to breathe
You can't yake that from me
I can finally say we're through

I'll leave when the wind blows
Take a breath and there it goes
I'll be outside of your window
I'll pass by but I'll go slow
I'll leaven when the wind blows

You can scream there's just echoes
Pass outside of your window
You'll be sad that you let me go
On every face you'll ever know
And everywhere you ever go
You'll feel when the wind blows

Unholy Confession

Going again~

Lets begin.
a Unholy confession

Im getting tired
Im getting sick
I have no sense of direction anymore
I dont know what to do
I dont know my future
I know Nothing

Lost after lost, Ive gain nothing. It has been too long. But nothing is gained. Im running out of ideas. Be it, either love, life, studies or anything, it seems to have crashed down. REAL hard. What can I do? Nothing. I tried. But it doesnt seem to work. I never gave up. Till now Im still trying hard. But It seems easier to let go rather than holding on to it. But Ill keep doing so. I wont let myself down. Wont let anyone down.

Recently, My heart bloom again. Someone who I have known for a while, light up my heart, my life. Clear sky is visible again. Thank You.

Its normal, when a heart desire something, You would really want it. But for this case, or usually for me, It wont happen. 'What a heart desire is just a dream you can't achieve' Thats what i think is true.

I rather back off, for her sake, for her wish. She have a heart for someone else, so i respect that. Ill help her in any way, be it that it will hurt me, but i dont mind. Its for the one I love. Ill be there for her, anytime she needs me =)

Ive been said that Im too nice. well.. I dont know, but I dont see the wrong. I am just me.

Pointless post. haha

My unholy confession
1) I love her
2) Im backing off for her
3) I almost gave up on life
4) Im still holding on, wont give up
5) I love my friends




Life is hard

Fun =)

Go Go Go!!!


The last Outing
Times Square, Monday, 08-06-09
Razzan, Hisyam, Nazrin, Harris
Azalia, Bainun, Nara

It was fun. 2nd time in cosmo world
Took every ride! They screamed, I was silence
Everyone was dizzy! Especially the guys.
Except me la =P

Took lunch at Chicken rice shop~ Yummy!
Went to buy Donut for ayzie~ and the end~ haha

These are my friends. Friends i would die for. The best. I had alot of fun. Wish it could last forever. It will be awhile till I can hang out with them again. I will miss them alot. Tx for the laughs, Tx for the thrills, Tx for the money (hahaha!), Tx for the moments and Tx for the Friendship



I Love You All

PPM 2009

Finally Im gona go

PPM Squad 2009

The Debaters

The Basketballers

Lets Cut short

PPM or HKSBP Didnt go as I wanted

The lost to SESERI cost us the whole tournament

I blame the lost on me

Sorry to my teamates

But whatever it is

I enjoyed my 6 days at SSP and SAS

Friends was everywhere

I could smile most of the time

My 1st and last PPM

It was memorable in a way =)

To Ayzie and bey

Congrats for making to the finals =)

Ill be praying for your sucess

To SDAR Red Wings

Congrats for getting 2nd

To new and old friends

Tx 4 making my day

To Bro Izzad and Teachers

Tx 4 all the support

To my junior debaters

Good luck next year

To my teamates

Sorry

I had fun

I really did

I will never forget the days

Counting the days

Go-ing away..

6 more days

The beginning of the end

HKSBP

My 1st and my last

Ill be sitting and suppoting

7 more days

The start of a break

Mid year break

The time to rest, relax and study

Im looking foward to it

9 more days

The day where my life changed a year ago

A suppose to be a year anny

Somehing unforgettable but dead

Im hurt but trying to move on

1 more day

The last day of a tiring 2 weeks

Final day of examination

Freaking exam

Im tired

Whats next..??





I dont know....

exam

Go-ing with determination!!

EXAMINATION

TARGET

No more failing any subjects

At least 4 A

Top 90 Batch

(Im not smart, so its a small target)

Wish me luck!!!!

Stupid

Go-ing with uneasy feelings

So, get this
Im SINGLE, I DONT have a GIRLFRIEND
Im a LONELY guy
But I admit I MISS her (FNA) alot

But again, get this
Im not that DESPERATE
I wont go up to the extend that I would steal a FRIEND'S GIRLFRIEND

I just need to be around FRIENDS
Be it schoolmates or anyone in the outside world

What HURTS most is
Someone who has been a close friend for me
Could be MAD at me for CONTACTING/TEXTING his girl

Get this
I DONT WANT her
I WONT STEAL her
I just contact her as a normal FRIEND
I wont BETRAY my own friend

But it HURTS when im not TRUSTED in this matter
Am I a PLAYBOY?
I dont go flirting around
Stupid...

Im not much of a guy eitherway
NOBODY wants me
So have no fear people, Your girlfriends WONT FALL for me

Everyone have been saying
'Harris, you've been dumped and rejected TWICE'
Every single time, my so called FRIENDS would say that
Yeah, I would laugh, but deep down it HURTS as HELL
It hurts more when I still have some feelings for her (FNA)

Im trying damn hard to make it through
But why the fuck am I being hated for MAKING friends???
So, this is what i can conclude
I can only be with friends with guys and single girls
Something like that rite?

Ah.. Craps... Stupid Love and Relationship Life




Screw it all

New =)

Go and Gone

I turn my head to the east

I don't see nobody by my side,

I turn my head to the west

Still nobody in sight

So I turn my head to the north

swallow that pill that they call pride

That old me's dead and gone

but the new me will be alright

I've been travelin on this road too long

Just tryin to find my way back home

But the old me's dead and gone

Changes Happens

10 things...

Ill Go as I want...

#1
Exam is coming up (6 days actually) and Im not prepared at all!!! waaaa

#2
Im currently hungry and there's nothing to eat... so suffering!!! haaa

#3
HKSBP 2009 is the week after Mid Year Exam. Im very excited, cant wait. (Hopely Ill Speak)

#4
I hate my feelings. I dont like what I feel right now. As in who I love and whatever

#5
I miss alot of people! Especially those who are close to me. I miss my bestie too!! I wish to spend time with them.

#6
Cant seem to concentrate on studies. But Im working on it.

#7
Hating a few person. Eventually those who were suppose to be close to me, but I hate them.

#8
Afraid of SPM. It seems to be coming closer and I dont have enough knowledge.

#9
Wants a silver lining for my Love Life. Been suffering about it

#10
Praying for everyone to be ok and hopes whatever they do, will work out fine.



Im just crapping about
Mood: Uncertain

Words that suits me

Hardest thing to let go..

To Love Is To Lose

TO Lose Is To Learn

To Learn Is To Cry

To Cry Is To Hate

To Hate Is To Forgive

To Forgive Is To Relive

To Relive Is To Get Over

To Get Over Is To Begin Again

Live Your Life

I Quote From FNA

These words suits me and anyone else out there

=)

Kupu Kupu Malam

Pergi lah =)

ada yg benci dirinya

ada yg butuh dirinyaa

da yg berlutut mencintanya

ada pula yg kejam menyiksa dirinya

ini hidup wanita si kupu-kupu malam

bekerja bertaruh seluruh jiwa raga

bibir senyum kata halus merayu memanja

kepada setiap mereka yg datang

dosakah yg dia kerjakan

sucikah mereka yg datang

kadang dia tersenyum dalam tangis

kadang dia menangis di dalam senyuman

oh apa yg terjadi, terjadilah

yg dia tahu Tuhan penyayang umatnya

oh apa yg terjadi, terjadilah

yg dia tahu hanyalah menyambung nyawa

Dearest People (female xP)

I shall go again =D

All girls =)

Well, no offence to guys la

Guys are still my best buds.

I just wana show the people who are very dear to me.

=)

Azalia (My bestie)

Nurbaya (My P.A)

Eka (My School sms pal)

Bey (My Twin Sis)

Nara (My BirthdayMate)

NurAin (My Annoyer)

Afiqah (My GossipMate)

Nazurah (My kakak)

Miss Azie (My Dearest Teacher)

All of you are the best

I treasure you all and I love you all!

Tx for everything =)

How I Go

This is how i go

I could tell you the wildest of tales

My friend the giant and traveling sales

Tell you all the times that I failed

The years all behind me the stories exhaled.

And I'm drying out

Crying out

This isn't how I go

I could tell you of a man not so tall

Who said life's a circus and so we are small

Tell you of a girl that I saw

I froze in the moment and she changed it all

And I'm drying out

Crying out

This isn't how I go

Hurry now

Lay me down

And let these waters

Flow, flow

My final IIUM Interschool Debate =)

I feeling glad to go again =D

IIUM Interschool Debating Championship 2009

This year was the best ever. All the effort, have finally paid off

After 6 hardcore prelims round and 4 knock out rounds

SDAR made it to the semis!

and this was the 1st time ever we made it there.

a history and record for sdar =)

and in fact, other SBP and good teams had already fallen early

we were the last best team

but too bad we lost in the semis to SMK Green Road, Kuching

They're ok. they got lucky. hahaha

But whatever it is, im glad to even achieve this level

we had to face hardcore teams like..

KUSESS (PPM Champ 08)

MRSM Balik Pulak (Inter MRSM Champ 08)

RMC (Runner up PPM 08, 1st ranked IIUM 09 Prelims)

KGV (Best newcomer and university level team)

we beat them all!!

a great achievement for us!!

with all this

I hope we can make it further...

PPM 09!! Here we come!! Watch out!!

ps: tx to everyone who helped us

and special tx to pn umi, bro izzad, ammar ehsan, shafiq, azim, fakhry (maahad hamidiah), SIGS, SAS, SSP, TKC and many more =)

tx for making my final year in iium very memorable

Currently at the momment

Can I go? now? yeah!!

WOW!!

My exam results sucks as hell!!

hahahaha

My parents will kill me

But I wont tell them!!

hahaha

Currently

Im damn busy and tired

Debate, PSS, ELS and Study

I need a break!!

But not now..

IIUM interschool is this friday

Will make this the best ever!

Will win it! insyaAllah...

My personal life never gets better

but what the heck

Life is like that

right???

To everyone out there

Pray 4 my interschool!!

Sori if i ever hurt you or anything!!

TX!!!

ps: My heart is neutral =)

Physics class unforgetable Moment

Lets go!! again...

10th April

Physics Class

It was during physics class

We had it at the phyics lab

Well.. at that moment

Everyone was 'high' because the period before was BM

We were damn sleepy and tired

We were learning something bout electric and magnetic or whatever

My teacher, Mdm R Yusliana, wanted to demo something to us

She called my table 1st to come foward

I was standing right infront of her.

She was demo-ing that thingy

When all of a sudden........

I DOZE OFF

I fell asleep while standing up!

Right in front of her!

My classmate was staring at me

She was laughing at me

I was damn ashamed!!!

I straight away went back to my seat

Covering my face with the text book...

WAAAAA!!

Note: Have enough sleep, and dont ever doze while standing infront of your teacher =P

Debate =)

I wana go again.. and again...

My Debate Family =)

Currently, I love debate like hell. I got competitions coming up. I hope ill do well in it. I really hope so. Let me hold a trophy. At least one of it. It would be the greatest gift ever. But I know Im not a good speaker. My teamates are way better than me. Ill end up only as reserve.. But what the heck. No matter. Ill do my best as a reserve.

Help Debate is coming soon. Will do my best in it. For IIUM Interschool and PPM, Im not sure. I might not go for it. Even if i go, maybe Ill just stick to being reserve. Ill give moral support. Yeah, Moral Support. Ill do whatever i can, for the team. I love the team. I love my debate family.

Irfan

Farhan

Faris

Azim

Aiman

Danial

Ammar

Zahin

Ashraf

Aidil

Hanif

Azim

Syafiq

Miss Azie

Mdm. Umi

English Teachers

Azalia

Bey

And every Debaters I know

And Everyone else

Im Sori for all that ive done and please pray for me, this is all for you

I love you all

=)

From a song

Lets go again

Quote from 'The City is at War'

"Ignore me"

"If You See me"

"Cause I Just Dont Give a SHIT"

To some people out there or whoever,

You wana critize me, make fun of me, ignore me or whatever, please do so. Because whatever you do, it does not effect me, your existance means nothing to me, and yes, I dont give a SHIT.

Tq =)

Oh SPM~

After awhile, Ill go again

SIJIL PELAJARAN MALAYSIAN (SPM)

Oh~ I so dont want to face it...
But its in a few months time (NO!!!)
Whatever it is, Ill do my best (pray for me!!)
9A1! amin~

and, good luck for others who's taking it too =D

Sayonara~

Ill go again one more time...

Going back to school!!

This holiday is a challenging one.

Lots of craps thrown at me

But wat the hell...

Life goes on

Blogging is on hold for awhile

Sayonara!!!

A nice phone call

So, Im gonna go again..

Now is 2.36 am.

The day Im gonna go back to school

Anyways, I just finish a phone conversation with two people! Well, two people talk over the same phone. hahaha. It was DAMN fun. Both were crazy. Both were fun. Both were funny. Both make me laugh like hell. Its been a while since I 'bergayut' on the phone. And Im glad I did once more before I go back to school. It was fun. To talk to your two good friends. And I was their 1st choice to call when they were bored. WAAAA... Was happy to hear that. HAHAHA.

Anyways, these two people is very close to me, my birthday mate and my twin petsis. haha They're fun! and I love both of them so Damn Much! Tx Bey and Nara! Here they are!

(Bey and Nara)

That message...

Lets go again..

That sms...

'u noe. Im trying my very best to nt thnk bout us. So many thngs hppnd. I just mls nk fk dh bcos it wont get anywhere. Mcm tu jgk. So im better off on my own'

So, there it is. I was looking forward for a respond... But thats not excatly what I was looking foward for... But its a respond at least.. That sms marks the total end of everything i guess. =(

To A,

Im sorry for always bothering you. It seems you've been trying so hard to forget it all, but I keep bringing it up. Thats so stupid of me. Im sorry. I do not blame you for acting like how you are now. I am a jerk and Ive screw up alot. I will not bother you anymore. I will make existance not noted to you. For your sake, Ill totally back off. I now know that We can never be together ever again, so Ill just dream of you. Ill always be a dreamer. Hope everything goes good for you. Ill be praying always. I will there for you if you need. Im here, ill always be here. Take Care A. 143

Good Bye

(No More)

Never Back Down

Here goes another one....

Life SUCKS

Debate is hard

Academic is falling

Love doesnt exist

Friendships are shaking

Loneliness arise

The dark side of me is showing

But

I wont stop there

Ill fix it all

'Never Back Down'

'Fight Till The End'

Will follow those words =)

(The shirt says 'Fight Till The End')

A night

Something happened tonight...

My house power supply went out! well... not just mine. the whole damn neighbourhood. hahaha. spent 2 hours in the dark! but it was interesting. the sky was beautiful. i was staring at it all the way. so, blackouts have its negative and postive. agree?? =)

(In the garden during blackout)

Everyone is Different

Here goes....

People always say:

'All Boys Are The Same'

and

'Perempuan Semua Sama Je'

Let me make it straight... Nobody is the same in this world. Our looks are different. Our emotions are different. Our feelings are different. Our behaviour are different. We are NEVER the same. But at times, i which same people are the same. Well... at least have something in common. What i meant is about how people evaluate things. How people come to a conclusion. How people would think before making a decision. How people would judge both side of the story. Basically I can say, Im everything what i just say. But, my life is terrible now, because people like to come to the conclusion just like that. They don't listen to my side. I never said im inocent. But i have my reasons on things. Because of this, many people have ditch me. Leaving me just like that, clueless. I dont like it. Though Im getting use to it. For me, even if my closest friends tells me something bad about this person, I would like to know their half before I conclude things. I dont want to feel wrong things towards people. At times, I want people to be like that. Be the same in that way. But what can I do?? I have to face the fact.....

Everyone is Different

1,2,3,4

Give me more lovin' than I've ever had

Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad

Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad

Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you

I love bein' around you

You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

Give me more lovin' from the very start

Piece me back together when I fall apart

Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad

Best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you

I love bein' around you

You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do

Three words for you I love you

There's only one way to say

Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

I love you

I wish to dedicate this to someone

and

I hope someone would dedicate it to me

=)

Birthday Girl

Azalia Zaharuddin =)

She's my one and only bestfriend a.k.a my bestie. Met Her when I was in Form 2 (2006). We got along pretty well and have been bestfriends ever since. She has been there for me all this while and i hope Im the same for her. A person I would go to for any reason. Been through sad times, happy times, and challenging times together. Hope it stays that way =).

Happy Birthday Dear Bestie =]

Sweet 17

(18.03.1992)

Im there for you always

Dead Memories

Sitting in the dark, I can't forget

Even now, I realize the time I'll never get

Another story of the bitter pills of fate

I can't go back again, I can't go back again

But you asked me to love you and I did

Traded my emotions for a contract to commit

And when I got away I only got so far

The other me is dead, I hear his voice inside my head

You told me to love you and I did

Tied my soul into a knot and got me to submit

So when I got away I only kept my scars

The other me is gone now I don't know where I belong

And we were never alive and we won't be born again

But I'll never survive with dead memories in my heart

Dead memories in my heart

A Sleeping Tool

Well, usually people would comment things bout us. They would say, ure a friend that makes me happy, ure a friend that makes people laugh, ure the friend people can cry on and so on.

BUT

My birthdaymate, which is Nara said i have a different function towards her. Im a friend she'll go to if she wants to SLEEP. Aha... Sleep. Weird eh?? Well, last nite around 3.00 a.m. she called me. Saying she apply for Hotlink Super Savers but suddenly all her friends she wanted to call was asleep. So she called me. (Consider that im a last option to call la...) So we talk and talk. Mainly no proper topic. But the She mention that she likes talking to me because that will make her sleepy

I was like 'What? Sleepy? How come?'. Well based on wat my other friends said, My voice if i talk through to the phone is very slow and lembik. So, Nara said, my voice sedap that it makes her sleepy and she likes it because she's a person that rarely gets sleepy. Hahahha. But she said its not that Im boring la. LOL.

So, it seems Im useful la in a way. To make people sleepy. Or maybe to make only Nara sleepy. hahaha. Kinda Cool But Weird.

So Nara

If You need to sleep

Ring me up

But dont disturb me sleep!!

=)

PS: To those who wants to try to get sleep too, try la call me. hahaha